You will use people like substances, with no regard for their feelings or humanity.
Finally, spectacularly, you will return home from an evening with friends to a broken Internet connection and suffer a complete meltdown because you are unable to get your "fix." There will be screaming and sobbing.
In my memory, it's replayed with edges blurred by a stream of holy light. " I asked, gesturing up and down at myself, to which he responded by pressing his boner against my leg while kissing me.
I don't think we did anything particularly amazing, but the experience was intensely hot for its anoymity and the internal chant that accompanies all my best sexual experiences: That was my first casual encounter, but I had long looked at the Internet as some sort of mystical man factory.
It's intimate, and you generally do have that "it's just sex" chat, but I'm curious what happens in the male brain. When you understand there's no such thing as the “male brain,” that is when you will start to gain wisdom about how men think.
There's no “typical” or “normal” way that men think about sex partners. The same man might have genuine affection for one casual sex partner, boredom for another, and fear of a third.
Whatever tentative boundaries once modulated your behavior will melt away, and you will find yourself in sexual situations with men you meet on the train, cab drivers and guys you let pick you up off the street and take you back to their apartments.
You will let people photograph you naked, then spend the rest of your life waiting for those pictures to come back to haunt you.
Or an older man to act out your sibling incest fantasy? If you are like me, with that special blend of poor self-image, lack of boundaries and compulsive tendencies, and you discover a fountain of neverending anonymous sex partners like Craigslist Casual Encounters, you will stop wanting to do anything else ever again.
You can get super weird and if you live in a fairly urban area, that dude is probably out there. And the stuff you will stop doing will include things like going to class, leaving your dorm room and "showering," except right before somebody comes over to soullessly bang your head against the bottom of your roommate's top bunk.
You will spend hours virtually cruising in a trancelike state, refreshing and responding until you realize a whole day has passed in which you've accomplished nothing but again reinforcing the knowledge that there are men in this world who would like to have sex with you.
You will develop an obsessive need to prove that last point to yourself again and again, with an ever-refreshing cast of characters.
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